My ears hurt.

I feel sick! But there just isn't a day that would be good to stay out of school, too. I have a (weekly) quiz in computers, and a two hour lecture class where my teacher was all, "don't miss it! It's YOUR choice!" And... It's only until 12:30, which isn't that bad. But the thing is, I can't even SLEEP after that, because I have to study for a biology test on Wednesday. And apparently, I also have a French test on Wednesday, too. When I glance at my schedule for Wednesday, I have French in the morning (which means I must study study study) and two hours of English, where I'll be all ... about my biology test after. That's when I'll study for my biology; I have a three hour break after English and before biology. Yay!

STUPID. I think if I take my medicine, I can study well tomorrow. And I will study. I will read my chapter, make notes, study said notes, recite the stuff, remember the stuff, and work work work. I will also throw in French. I'm not AS WORRIED about French, but it isn't the best thing either. Gah. GAH!

I'm done classes at 12:30 tomorrow. Urrrrgh. I will make this work.

TRULY.

Anyway. I was having a bad evening (after a random bout of levels of excitement), but I talked to my friend, and it was a bit better. It's sucky how my best friend doesn't live here. SADFACE! I think I just need to go home for awhile. Which hopefully, I'll be able to do.

- Possum

To drink or not. Hm.

I think I'm getting the hang of youtube. I even want to make a video. Not an exciting one, but it'll still be a video. I'll see how that goes. (I attempted today, but the lighting/content = not so good). I guess not all videos will be vlogbrother quality, but STILL.

I'm tired. And I didn't even do a whole lot today. Today, I watched the beginning of All Dogs Go To Heaven 2, read Harry Potter, took a nap, had a numb arm from said nap, had some guy come into my room twice, watched a bit of the VMAs and played around on youtube. I also went outside for awhile, and some girl knew why I liked the names Giles! She was all, "because of Buffy, isn't it?" and I'm all, "YES!"

Speaking of that... People in my dorm. All the people who I talk to, pretty much all went drinking last night. So even if I WAS brave enough to hang out with them, I really wouldn't have been able to. One of my dad's advice for me was to not hang out with people that were drinking. UNLESS I was drinking, too. And I was like, pssh! I don't even drink. But my parents think I'm going to start. And hey, if I do. I do. I'll be nineteen next month. I just think I'm not going to become some insane drinker, even if I DO. I don't know if I will or not. Does this even make sense? I don't know. I find it fun to stay in with my computer and tv. I just kind of wish I had someone else to do this with.

BECAUSE IT SEEMS EVERYONE IS A DRINKER. Seriously.

Gahh. There HAS to be someone in this building who didn't go out last night! You know? YOU KNOW?? Hahaha.. Put up an ad on the facebook group for my residence group: "Like Harry Potter? HARRY POTTER MOVIE NIGHT!!" Oh boy.

I shake my head at myself.

Right now I'm listening to Carly Simon (you're so vain, boy!!) and I plan to read more about Harry, Hermione and Ron before I flutter off to sleep.

DAMN YOU 8:30 CLASS!!! (At least I'm done before noon! =))

- Possum

Library fines, oh my.

Today is when I turn off my lights and sit in the dark for an hour at 8:30 to 9:30. Why you may ask? While I do have a liking for the dark when I'm attempting to sleep or get away from BRIGHT THINGS THAT MAKE MY HEAD POUND, today is the day of Earth Hour!

It's exciting.

So I've got my candles already set and ready to go. It's also kind of rainy and just 'bleh' outside, so I assume I would need candles anyway. Candles make a relaxed atmosphere, which rain kind of washes away.

Atmosphere being described as "a place is the general impression that you get of it". And if it's relaxing, it'd be an impression of RELAXATION! I don't know I went that far with that particular thought.

I woke up rather late today. I was shocked when I turned my head to my alarm clock thing: 2:33PM! What?! How could I sleep THAT late? I was surprised myself. All I did last night was read articles on Wikipedia and Encyclopedia Dramatica (which took an hour + out of my life), but still. You'd think I wouldn't waste my day away. >.>

I started to work on my essay, with preparations of my arguments like I would preparing for a debate. I don't know why I did this, but I got a lot more work done that I normally would. (I.E: I got my general points made up.) I got distracted by my library card, though. My fines at the moment are $30 dollars. That's ridiculous. Apparently I don't have the ability to return things on time. But I already knew that; common knowledge about Possum is well known to everyone (in my life).

I have to renew my library card. But because I don't even LIVE in the city where I go to school and BUY stuff, I have to PAY a FEE to USE the LIBRARY. That's ridiculous! Well, because I'm eighteen, you're allowed to get a card for free, but before I go about doing that, I have to pay my fines. I hate that. It's too much work. But I mean, it's my fault for not even returning the books on time, so I understand.

I just hate when fines accumulate. It's annoying.

Anyway, one of the features they have on the MY LIBRARY CARD section or whatever, is that you're allowed to see a limited reading history you have. Aka: What books you took out of the library. Looking over mine, I've got a LOT of Meg Cabot books. It's exciting, believe me. I've also got Sarah Dessen, Maureen Johnson, and randomly enough, John Green. I don't even remember reading a John Green novel before BEDA, but apparently I read An Abundance of Katherines. Or at least took it out of the library. Odd! Looking over the first few pages of my copy now, it's familiar. I just remember that I stopped reading it after the first chapter. Ooh, bad. I wonder why, though.

Probably because I had 50 other books to read! (Yes, in my one time take out of 50 books, there is a RECORD of those 50 books.) I was going to show you the list, but I don't know. If you're curious enough, just ask. (I know you probably will, Leah.) So yeah. Libraries are amazing, and I just wish I am able to go to them more often without a worry of money.

Which is ironic, because of the BEST THINGS about libraries is they're normally free.

Consequences of being a procrastinator of returning things, and living outside of city limits.

Curses.

- Possum

Candles and parties, oh my.

The stuff I bought (er... my mom bought) at the candle party I went to a few weeks ago came in today. A candle party is kind of like a Tupperware party. People just go buy the stuff. They put an order in, and a few weeks later, it will come in. There's also usually snacks and other lovely things. My mom is actually hosting one this month. There was a free Host gift (a host gets a free gift) and I was like "we need to host a party to get that!!" So my mom did.

I love my mom.

So anyways, the loot came in. I got some incense cones, with a sweet little holder, some candles with Olympic colours (with different scents!) and a DIFFUSER THING. (Those caps weren't supposed to be there, but my cruise control came on, so away it goes.) All that for like 60 dollars! Simply ridiculous. But they do smell simply divine.

Oh the wonders of scent.

Anyway, today at co-op, we got a new counter shelf thing. And I am a complete failure at the calculator. It's just so complicated for me, it's embarrassing. I used a calculator in math, but this calculator? IT IS CONFUSING! I need like a tutorial in how to use it. Lame. My supervisor was all "you need to know how to use this" and I'm all "yeah..." but inside I was like >.<

Oh! I got my first test back in my introduction to anthropology, sociology and psychology today. I was so proud of my mark, I was like !! I got 79/80. The question I thought I was going to have trouble with? I didn't. My teacher even wrote a comment by my answer saying "Wow (Possum), you really know this stuff!" Haha, that's fun. The one question I got wrong? I didn't know what type of sociologist would study a certain situation. It was one of the questions I thought was tricky, so that isn't that bad. But yeah, I be proud of it!

I am also proud of my cats! We're currently dog sitting Fancy, a ... dog. We've been doing this for awhile now every now and then, so my cats are familiar with her. This time is no different! They're not even scared! But Sidney, one of our dogs, he is BARKING LIKE A MAD MAN! It's getting annoying. Small dogs have a distinctive sharp bark that is annoying.

That is true.

- Possum

Sigh-a-ligh

Sidney Crosby is big news right now. This makes sense, as he's the one that scored the winning goal. But still. As my business teacher said: "It HAD to be Sidney. What a poster boy." Not to say I don't like him. I do. I even mentioned him in my business essay randomly. It was my connected theme in my introduction and conclusion. How? Trading cards. Just go with it.

Anyway, my friend keeps on ditching me. I don't think ditching is the word, but more so... She's standing me up. And it's getting fricken annoying! I don't even want to see her at this point for AMUSEMENT, but to get all the books she has of mine back. I'm done with high school friendships. Seriously.

It doesn't help the only thing we talk about when we talk is about the memories of years ago. "Remember when John made that comment about apples?" "Remember when we sent Warren that message?" YEAH, THOSE ARE THINGS I REALLY CARE ABOUT. >_>

I realize you have no idea what those mean, but eh.

I'm just getting frustrated with people in my life.

Especially the counselors at my school! Apparently I REALLY DO need college English. And I was all 'can I take it at night?' and they were all "I don't think that's a good idea". DO THEY NOT COMPREHEND THAT IT IS MY FUTURE SCHOOL-AGE? When I was in the office today, I wanted to start crying. But I didn't. I just kind of went with the... punches.

I know this seems like I'm in a bad mood, but I'm not. I'm quite in an okay mood, with the laughter coming through. I just finished watching a stand up comedy special on those damn Yankees. Aka: You, most likely. It was about the seven deadly sins. I love seeing those comedians from back in the day. Especially one of them, because he was talking about his daughter who was in preschool. His most recent stuff talks about his daughter dating. LEGASP! She's grown up!

I haven't got a clue who she is, but y'know... intense.

- Possum

It's not the usual standards

Legasp! I didn't write an entry yesterday! I know, it's not really cool. But I'm still in my right, so it's not that bad. I felt bad about it, but what can you do?

(The reason why I didn't blog was that when I got home, my dad went on the computer, so I couldn't shimmy on.)

SO!

It's Wednesday! And the weird thing is that I'm not writing this when I'm at home, watching Criminal Minds. First off, I'm not even home, but at the mall, and secondly, I can't even watch Criminal Minds anymore.

Why you may ask?

WELL! I'll tell you, dear one. You see, I live in the country. And when you live in the country, you're sort of giving up some stuff. I.e.: Being near people you like, delivery on meals, etc. So! Another thing you give up is FAST INTERNET and cable! I think those two go hand in hand? Anyway! The jest of it all is that I don't have cable. I don't even have a satellite dish to watch television on! My family used to have one, but I broke it (long story...) so my parents just decided to never get it fixed.

Although come January, they'll pretty much be forced to get a dish. Not by the government or anything, but by their KIDS! As I'm thinking of staying home for school, thus living at home, I'll be paying a rent (of sorts). In that payment, I will require some stuff that I could've got at a dorm. They want me to stay home, so they will HAVE me staying home. I don't even think my parents expect me to pay rent, but I feel that I should.

ANYWAY, back to the point: I only get THREE channels. Well, four if you count the French channel. Therefore, there are a limited number of shows I can WATCH in that three channel radius. So you have may guessed, before I was able to watch Criminal Minds. Well, of course! But one of the stations (two of them owned by the SAME guy) decided to switch carriers or whatever they used. Before I was able to watch shows on CTV--like Criminal Minds and CSI--but now they're using Global. Now, Global isn't that bad in the sense of I'm now able to watch The Simpsons on Sunday evenings (again), and Glee when it comes back on (although I did that in the last station), I don't get my favorite criminal shows.

Actually, I don't even get any tv shows I like. It makes television boring. Although it's nice to be able to watch House and Bones a lot during the week! Haha... But again, I could've did that with the last station too.

So there you have it. I'm not doing what I'd normally be doing when I write this entry. Any questions?

- Possum

Help me name my stuffed animals!

My mom bought a stuffed animal for me today. Not only is it a stuffed animal, but it's a duck! AND IT'S SUPER ROUND!

I absolutely love it.

As I attempt to find a picture for it on Google images, it's not actually a success. I mean, there are REAL duck MEALS coming up! I don't want that!

Anyway, I don't know what to name him. I already have Sylar the Hippo, and a rhino without a name (as of the moment)... So what should I name my duck? If you have any awesome name suggestions, let me know. And if you come up with something for my hippo (that squeaks when squeezed) I'll really love that!

=D MUCHO APPRECIATED IN ADVANCE!

I have some homework to do. But I also kind of want to watch a show on tv in eight minutes, so I'm at a conflict. Plus I have a desire to go to bed early. I mean, I've already had my shower. When I have my shower before 7:30, that means BUSINESS!

I can't believe I used to have a shower at like 6:30 in the morning, and be ready for school. Although that was elementary school, it's still amazing. Not just that, my sister had a shower after me, and she was ready as well. A-may-zing!

Ooh, I had a bagel today. I was walking through the mall meeting my sister, and I shimmied into the bagel shop. I also bought a chocolate milk. It was wonderful. I mean... The girl didn't put a lot of cream cheese on my bagel (which is good) but I was like whaaaaaaa? I also think she is the sister of an old friend from elementary school. So very odd.

I hate how slow my internet is. Damn you dial up! *shakes fist in rage*

- Possum

Yeah...

I had a dilemma this evening.

There were two movies on tv that I wanted to watch, but they were on at the same time.

That's blasphemy.

I just ended up watching the one with Emma Caulfield. Otherwise known as Anya on Buffy!

I don't know if it was the best choice. It's been rather ... interesting, but I don't know.

So today was good. I enjoyed it. I had some pie, I read The Sister's Keeper (although I've yet to finish it) and yes. It's all very good. I even watched Twilight. But don't even get me started on that. I can't believe it was named as one of the most romantic 'true love' movies out there. It was right beside Gone with the Wind!

I wanted to slap whoever wrote that. -_-

Seriously.

- Possum

Personal Dilemma

So I got an interview at a second hand bookstore today for my co-op placement. As they really know nothing about me, I don't really see this as an accomplishment, per say. They are just kind of saying yes to the potential for a FREE worker. Who wouldn't say yes to that?

Speaking of that, today this guy told me that I could be HIS co-op student. I can do his chores, make him a sandwich, work in the kitchen where women belong... I just stared at him blankly, but seriously. As I had a class with him last semester, I know he's just LIKE that, but seriously. Who even believes that?

However, even though I've GOT an interview at a bookstore, I've still got some hesitation. When I was talking to ANOTHER teacher, she asked if I was interested in working with kids. I, of course, am sort of planning on becoming a teacher (maybe) so I said yes. Here's the thing: I can get a co-op placement at a school. Working with little kids.

I'm caught between two things. My own personal interest and future in retail sales for a summer job, or my future. Long term, or short term? Instant gratification or future fulfillment? The thing with all this is, I can actually see if I want to work with children. Y'know?

But I really love books.

Plus there's the whole thing about not even getting the placement at the bookstore. Whoah. I want to smack myself.

I don't know what to do.

Yadayadayada.

- Possum